Exhausted

Concentrated on a single module for at least 10 hours..
My brain is totally out of order now.

Good (?) Friday

管不了課業..
晚上和香港的朋友skype了三個小時
說到未來 說到工作 說到愛

對吧 是錯的時間
沒有相處過我便回去英國 兩個完完全全陌生的人能聊多久
有時跳進你的角色 你也不容易吧

事實上 現在困著我的是-對你的不了解
若我知道你是何樣性格的人 我也不用自尋煩惱
對於我的出現 你覺得煩擾嗎? 喜歡嗎? 或是很幼稚? 我不懂判斷.
你並不喜歡分享你的事情你的感受
-所以當我收到你說: 'I miss snowy winter.'的時候 我樂了半天.

w說:其實我不甘心自己鼓起勇氣後 沒有結果 (雖則自己說過不求什麼)
若我是在了解他過後才發現他不適合自己的話 我認命 沒結果就沒結果
但現實是我和他的溝通永遠停在很表面的層次..每每在我要放棄,訂好期限或最低落之時, 
他便會像懂得心靈感應般出現;這才是教我搖擺不定的原因.

這一個多星期以來 我一直放手 等你先開口
我不想把自己弄得太卑微 但他不懂 好像什麼都不懂
我怕的是我自己 人馬最喜歡挑戰;最怕到頭來是為了挑戰自己
而忘記了初衷 愛.

1000 times - Sara Barailles
Cause love is a cage
These words on a page
Carry the pain
They don't free it

In another life 
I wouldn't need to console myself as I resign to release you

You can make me wait forever
push me away and tell me never
I don't mind no I don't mind
I would come back a 1000 times.

x winsome

Let's start.

Suddenly, I just want to write something about my final year here in Lancs.

It is only the third week of this term yet i can feel the stress. 
Readings are overwhelming me..what i m always learning is to be more efficient haha it is hard to achieve when you are facing a full page of English like each vocabulary was yelling 'LOOK AT ME! LOOK AT ME!' ...BLAH!

Wheeeee...7 weeks to go.

Another reason (so called) to write this blog - An architect.
Everything about him started because of a sudden decision.
My bbf always tells me: 'Let it be!'. I am unwilling to do so though i know thats the only way to release myself.
To me, he was a cool summer breeze i could never be able to catch. 
Ahh..stop talking sth that easily makes me moody..

A little project is running - I'll try my best to record all the sunset during my remaining days as an uni student in Lancaster :) 
Will keep them in a sketchbook as a memento teehee!

x winsome